Some questions

During my recent break, part of my quest for answers was about whether or not I should continue this blog. It was good to take a break from writing my thoughts down here, because I realized how much I really love it. It has helped me to write out my story in my own way, cultivating joy, watching for the details. I also love hearing from you, the readers, the ones who write their own stories as well as the ones who simply read and encourage me so much.

At the same time, returning to writing, I realize that I want to be more intentional. I want to stop being afraid to succeed, and start to put my whole heart into the things that I do, rather than hold back. I have always held back, I think, afraid of being swallowed by things around me; fads, or group sentiment, or even just the great engulfing compassion I am always tiptoeing around. Basically, I will cry for days if I really let myself enter into world events. But I need to surrender. Stop being afraid.

So, I want this blog to be a part of this. I have been afraid of it swallowing me whole, and so I have kept back, recently. Now I want to leap into its large toothy mouth.

Part of being more intentional is the conversation bit. The interaction. I have responded to comments by email when I can, but what I'm wanting to hear from you is how you'd like to interact. I'm asking, what do you think? I can't figure it out. And I'm totally not professional at writing, or mothering, or anything, really. So, if I'm going to respond, do you like email? Or a conversation in the comments? I guess those are the only options. Unless anyone has any other ideas?

Also, what has really spoken to you? What do you like to read about? Is there anything I haven't written about that you'd like to read about?

I'm wide open, here. It's not that I won't keep it real, keep it from my heart, but blogging is simply not one-sided, after all. And that's the beauty of it.