Today I have a pond for you.
The last few weeks have been some of my lowest in years. Perhaps I am absorbing the sorrow of this nation, perhaps I am finally losing my marbles. I flail around as always, looking for a way out. Everywhere I look: sorrow and the mistakes of humanity, the mistakes of living in fear of others, fear of the unknown.
But I sat by this pond and I breathed in good things.
Water bugs ran across the surface of the pond, casting tiny shadows. I watched for many minutes. Their legs make a delicate dimple on the water that reflects sky, and you think, "Maybe they'll fall in, I hope they don't fall in." But they never do. Lighter than air.
I am thirty-six years old, how long can I go on wishing I had been made differently? Wishing I was more light-hearted, less difficult, less complicated. Neurotypical.
And the world beats on, while I'm in the dark. And mistakes are made, and bad people are elevated, and so here it is: stop wishing.
These are some true things:
1. We cannot live in fear. Fear will choke us and keep us from each other. And Jesus was all about being together, loving one another, not being afraid of the other.
2. You are dearly, dearly loved by the Holy One, the Maker of the Universe. So is every refugee, disenfranchised person, disabled person, woman, person of color, gay, lesbian or trans person, and immigrant. All of us, dearly loved.
3. Beautiful things have always happened during difficult times. There will be a lot of beauty in the days ahead. May God open our eyes.
I'm not good for many things: you probably don't want to meet me, I'm socially awkward and scared in crowds.
But I will keep writing. And my stories will be against fear and for acceptance.
I have a fun announcement: World Whisperer 2 has a title. It's called Path of Springs, and it will launch on December 15, just a tiny bit later than I first imagined, back when I forgot I didn't have superpowers.
I am making a new cover for World Whisperer with my Superstar husband, and also a cover for Path of Springs. They are not in existence yet, but you'll be the first to know when they are.
In the meantime, here's a little time lapse of me drawing Isika for the first cover.